ugh, today was the worst friday.  after school i had swimming, which wasnt that bad, but after that things only got worse.  on the bus on the home i got a text from steph saying that the moving people came early and she was moving tonite instead of tomorrow.  i called her right away and she asked if she could sleepover my house to take the psats tomorrow which was fine w/me cause it would be like one last dynamic duo party before she left.  wen i got home from swimming i had to go to a wake, which was really sad, but surprisingly no one was really crying there.  wen i got home from that, which was like 1/2 an hour to 45min ago the moving truck was outside steph's and wen i called her she came out and told me that her mom wanted her to go to the new house w/them, i guess cause it's there first night but im not really sure, and then she had to go.  i hardly had time to say goodbye.  i miss her so much already and idk what im gonna do w/out her .  it's gonna be so hard getting used to esp. cause we've lived across the street from eachother forever and now we dont anymore.  its gonna be really weird wen the new people move in too, cause then it's like she's really not coming back.  it hasnt even been an hour and i already miss her. 

moving onto happier things, danielle might come over in a little while and we're gonna watch harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban which is an amazing movie and hopefully that will brighten my mood, but we'll hafta wait and see.  i gotta go cause she's probably gonna be here soon.  ttfn.

so, aside from tonite (now last night cause it's 12:30am), the past week has sucked a lot and it doesnt look like it's gonna be getting better any time soon.  there's just so much stuff going on right now and idk how to deal w/a lot of it.

on wed it was one year since the worst day ever.  *11/10/03* i feel like so much has happened in the past year.  in some ways it feels like it's been an eternity has gone by and in others it feels like it's only been a couple days.  i feel like i just need a vacation from everything right now, including my life, but thats not gonna be happening anytime soon, so i guess i just hafta deal.

tonite though i threw steph a surprise going away party and some of her friends came over.  it was fun, but also really sad cause soon shes not gonna live across the street anymore and im not gonna see her everyday anymore.  i keep telling myself that it's all gonna be fine and that a 1/2 an hr car ride isnt that bad, but the truth is, after seeing her everyday for my entire life and being able to call her to do stuff at the last minute, it's gonna be really hard esp cause neither of us have our licenses so we can't just drive to each others houses anytime we want. 

on top of all this, monday is colin's surgery, which i didnt know he was getting till last week, but its a pretty big one.  as far as i know he's gonna be in the hospital for a couple days and then i think 2 or so weeks bed rest at home, but im not completely sure.  also, now aidan needs a surgery and even though his isnt nearly as big as colin's, its still upsetting that both of them need surgeries around the same time and theyre both so young.  it really sucks and i just hope that both of them are ok and the surgeries are the end of it all for them.  i realize that there's nothing i can do about it, but it's just really scary and sad to know that two little kids have to get surgeries for some pretty big problems when they dont even really understand what's going on.

oh yea, and as for the yg thing, that was really just me taking my bad mood b/c of other things out on them.  i really just overreacted about the whole thing cause i needed someplace to get my anger out.  i apologized to them though, and everything's cool now.  ugh, i gotta work tomorrow, which i really dont feel like it, but i hafta take 1/2 days the next couple of weekends so i hafta go tomorrow.  im off to bed, nighty night.

well, school started 3 weeks ago today and the teachers didnt waste any time handing out hw and projects and crap.  personally i think its all a big waste of my time, but there's no use complaining about it here.  and thats not the reason why im writing this entry anyway.

onto the more important stuff.  im REALLY pissed at everyone from youth group esp. cause i sent out all the f-ing emails about the stupid breakfast they hosted yesterday and then no one called me to tell me the time.  i decided to join another yg.  i'll probably go to st. thomas moore cause they actually do stuff other than sit around watching football.  so i was telling erin everything that happened on the phone yesterday and i said that all the people at olbs youth group can go have gay man sex together (cause they're all guys) and she said that they already do, which is very true.  so we're both pissed and if any of them ever talks to me ever again, i might blow a fuse. 

so, thats about it for now.  except we're going to visit erin on friday and im mucho excited!!  well, gotta go finish the hrs of hw i have left.  ttfn

ugh! todays the 14th school was supposed to start the 1st, then it got delayed to the 8th which was perfectly fine w/me but then they delayed it again till the 20th and its gettin a tad ridiculous.  i mean that summer's over and there's not much else to do. 

on the plus side, im now in squan visiting aunt sheila and uncle john, though they are both up north for the day.  i took the train down here yesterday w/aunt sheila and i'm stayin till the end of the week.  i luv the beach, but it's kind of depressing seein the whole beach empty and no one around.  last night we had dinner w/jerry and then jerry stayed and hung out for a little while before returning to the back house.  it's kinda lonely here, but it's better to be lonely and bored here then at home.

g-mommie was going down to tennessee to live w/auntie which is a tad bit upsetting.  it was pretty sad saying goodbye to her yesterday cause now i wont see her till christmas.  well, that's about it for now.